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Okay, it is now 6:06 a.m and as I was doing my morning yoga (Mondays, Fridays and Sundays are yoga) I tried very hard not to think as I was embracing my inner goddess when I (unwillingly) began to ponder the thought about how relationships sometimes lack individualism.
I believe it began when I had a discussion with my sister yesterday about how she was feeling “weak” because she kept most of her focus on her boyfriend than on her self. She explained that she found it hard to be productive with her life because she keeps worrying about her other half. I had to point out to her that she was her own person, not a siamese twin where she feels she needs to go and do everything her boyfriend is doing.
I suppose we cannot help but feel lovestruck when we love somebody and feel compelled to revolve our world around them. But after many relationships, I can honestly tell you all that you really do not need to worry about being your own person in a relationship. Over-obsessing the “we” is more strenuous I find on a relationship than being two individual people who care about each other and are not afraid to spend time apart and live their own lives.
I have been with my hubby for three years and, of course, the first couple of months to a year are, “I love you” “No, I love you” “You hang up first” “No, you hang up first!” “Sigh, aren’t we just the perfect couple?!”
And of course, the old-fashioned, “No, we don’t really like to go to that restaurant” “Yes we both loved that movie!”
After awhile, maybe a month, I felt too suffocated that I did not have enough space to myself, and honestly, I think he felt the same way. So I would encourage him to hang out with his friends, stay home and relax, go to a strip club. Just give me some space, please.
I can also say that this is the only relationship where my hubby felt comfortable to tell me he didn’t mind getting his own in personal space. In my relationships in the past, I kid you not, but all of my exes would not want to leave me be for a day at least. Now, I do not mind the intimacy and wanting to spend time together, but as I have previously mentioned, I was my own person and so were my exes. We had to learn to take time off from each other. It was gratifying when we started to do so, because every moment of every day together can be so frustrating.
Now, have you ever had a conversation with a man or woman (just randomly, at a cafe or store or whatever) and at first they feel comfortable to talk to you and then when their husband or wife come along they begin to act nervous and standoffish? The reason why I ask is because the other day I brought my son to the park and this couple with two little boys were there. I was watching my son play with their kids and the husband came around to watch his children as well. The wife was seated at the bench, texting on her phone (yeah, that’s right. And this was a middle-aged woman) I began to start a conversation with this man because it would have been awkward just standing near each other, watching our kids, and not saying anything. While we were talking, I noticed the man kept nervously looking at his wife. At first I was feeling like I was intruding (maybe they had a fight or something?) but after a while it just became damn annoying. Clearly, the whip was cracked hard on this guy. Plus, I have a ring on my finger and a child for eff’s sake. How can you honestly be that insecure?!
It’s not like this is the only time this has happened to me, but after awhile you begin to think are relationships really this constrictive? Do we really need to confirm that we are in relationships all the time? Are we really tied down to those we love? Uhm, eff no!
My hubby and I are very open about our love, but we are also very secure about each other. We trust each other so much that sometimes when he goes out to hang out with his friends, I completely forget he’s left the house. I do know that if he’s not home, he’s either on a walk or with his friends.
I am sure he won’t cheat either because we have an open sexual relationship. We love doing fantasies and enjoy sharing each other. We love to experiment, and in the end, the vanilla sex between us is incredible.
So we completely stripped out the “we” in our relationship and became more “you and me” and if we are feeling spontaneous, maybe another “him” or “her”, Aside from that, my point is that people should not feel compelled or threatened about the security of their relationship is everything is fine. Plus, one other thing that would probably make people feel more comfortable about their relationship is being open about their sexual relationship and fantasies.
I find this is the main factor that brings most insecurity in relationships. It always ties down to that, don’t you think? You know what ladies, if your man is still having sex with you, you do not have anything to worry about. Sometimes there are dips (especially if you have kids) but if you are still striding and riding him like a girl on a mechanical bull than you are maintaining one of his most important needs. Please do not feel shy or insecure or angry if your man proposes some other fantasies. The reason why I press this and encourage this is because:
1. It is important in sex to have spontaneity. Boring sex is boring sex.
2. Fantasies are fun, believe it or not. So don’t knock it til you try it.
3. Before doing any fantasy, compromise. Going over the do’s and don’ts of trying out fantasies is important because you need to know what you are both comfortable with.
4. Do not push each other to try new things – that is one red flag that leads to immense insecurity. Things take time to adjust to, and eventually (sometimes not, but that’s okay) you will both be able to try the things you like or are curious about.
5. Be safe with your body, soul and heart (playing with toys, rough sex. s&m – be aware)
6. Most importantly, your man loves YOU. No one else. You will have him wrapped around your finger and on his knees with this new spontaneity.
The same goes for men, too!
In all, I hope that all of you in relationships know that it is okay to be on your own in a relationship. You do not need to suffocate each other by being together 24/7. Giving each other space is actually healthier on a relationship, so leave some time for guy/girl time, road trips, yoga, whatever. Just be “me“ than “we“